
When I was young and had time to loll about, my brothers used to pull a random paperback from my shelves and ask me to identify it using only the gap it left. I always got them right. I knew where each book knelt as though in its own benediction each night. The Last Unicorn. The Incredible Journey. I Heard the Owl Call my Name, Josie goes Home. Every single volume of The Bobbsey Twins. When they weren’t there, I knew.
‘Give it back. I never said you could.’
I kept my library tight and worried about it at school. I imaged wrongly that it was of value to everyone and that everyone was dazzled by its kaleidoscope of broken skies and the urge to not travel anywhere but through it.
I was mistaken. Everyone has their own dazzle. What was actually dazzling was only my infatuation with it. But I continued collecting. Later, when I had my own bookshop, I would meet fellow dazzlers. They range from the age of five to ninety five, and I would know them by the way they turn on an axis and can’t decide.
Now our home has been rinsed through with family; a thousand summers. L plates. Exams. Crying, and broken microwave plates. Near misses. Calamity, and needing to reorganize the towels. Grandsons that read and climb and fall out of the mulberry tree and come for a bandaid. The library standing back and looking on with approval.
The collections continue, swollen and mixed, with broadened shoulders and matchbox cars around their ankles. Books have moved. The children’s flats have burst upward like pancakes and newcomers stand around waiting for a place. Joan Didion, Alexis Wright, Lahiri Jhumper, A Gentleman in Moscow, everything by Marie Darrieussecq, Kim Scott, Gerald Murnane. Books have gone; don’t know where.
The library has been forced back into order, but it didn’t last. I pushed all the shelves to new places to make new spaces, so now D is next to T, and Asterix looks at Beatrix Potter, and I can’t find anything, but so far that’s ok. I know where Bill Bryson probably is, and I know where the Text Classics are because I just read The Women in Black and put it back. There are plastic monkeys clustered underneath Little House on the Prairie where they are having kindy, and Owl Babies is always out on the floor.
A library whirls around its readers; it is never still and never the same, and its life can never end.
Image by Vladimir Fedotko
What a wonderful tribute to your home library. I love this sentence: “I pushed all the shelves to new places to make new spaces, so now D is next to T . . . .” Your library is alive.
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Thank you Priscilla 🙂
I often wonder though – what’s going to happen to it….
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Now all you need is an orangutan librarian! 😀
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Haha!! That’s true!
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Your grandkids are so blessed. Being in your librabry sounds like so much fun, and a very comfortable and inviting place to be.
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Thank you so much 🙂
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How happy your library is to belong to you! 🤗
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Ha!! I never thought of it that way, thank you Ana 🙂
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Really? It was so clear to me I almost didn’t write it — glad I did!
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Wonderful descriptions!
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Thank you Becky 🙂
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I love the phrase “rinsed through” .
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Thank you – it’s what it feels like- we’ve been in the same house (in Kanmantoo, South Australia) for 27 years now!
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